The Transformation....
I've come a long way, but not by walking but by praying and letting sh!t go, see my transformation was not a fast one, I slipped back a couple of times, a girl had to eat...I lived life on the edge, sometimes looking life in the face and laughing.... hell no I wasn't raped and had a father in place of the bio...I was in love with the fast life, but not the fast cars...I was surrounded with depair, boarded up houses, fiens asking were Black was, holding and loading, packing dat sh*t in viles instead of body oils...Taking trips to places but never leaving the hotel...listening to Mary J. Blige's.. My Life, after having sex with a so called hood ni*gga talking about one day I am going to take you away from all of this, but I did take myself away from it all, no matter how hard sh*t got I keep myself in school... I hid this life from friends esp. my Clyde....but they knew the deal, I was never made for the streets anyway...I had the face of a baby, and my heart was pure, no matter how hard things got, I knew it was life outside of the hood, I had a TV, 3 of them to be exact that showed me people didn't have to carry guns for protection, didn't buy their girlfriends guns, no trips to the range...tuck blades under their tongues threating to slice a b*tch cause now you fvcking with Black a chick would test you....So my love with this thug was beginning to put a strain on my desire to change and he wasn't having it...How can you leave me? why you can't go to college here....I sat and looked at the letter for 4 days scared to open it, and when I did, I cried....Those tears didn't hurt like the other ones, like kissing black goodbye cause I didn't know when I would see him again, but tears of celebration, coming of age expectations, my transformation had begun and now I have a story to tell....I made it out but everyone wasn't so lucky, but I know they would be proud of me...Like Ole' Man John said, babe one day you are going to touch the stars and if you don't reach them at least you can say you made it out of the hood....
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She was the modern Isis, honey thought she was priceless - perfect definition of what a wife is....
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