How Sick Is This?

[ziax215]

Wide eyed
I'm running
I started out walking but
Apparently
My legs had other plans I can't
Believe
Its been so long
And nothing has changed
Five years washed over me
And I'm stuck in the waves
Treading water
Salt blinded eyes
Can't see the border
Don't know which direction to turn
To put my life in order
I'm breathing hard...
I'm not used to this stress
I need to slow down
And catch my breath
Ok I'm back to walking
Everythings cool but for a second there
I guess I lost it
I try to keep my s*** together
But its so exhausting
All these faces
All these facades
You never met the real me
You never knew who I was
I swear
If I took off this mask
You wouldn't recognize me
The coverage was so complete
And the sick part is
I can't remember not being like this
This is the hell in which I exist
What if it lasts forever?
What if I keep taking these pills and still I don't get better?
What if it keeps getting worse
Until my life is severed?
A book of questions
With no answers
Both my thoughts
And my body go faster, faster
Desperation the vortex
Thats sucking me in
I went down that rabbit hole before
Here I go again...