persia
03-08-07, 08:09 PM
I sit and stare wishing, just wishing that you were here
Amazing how feelings grow when you just open up to that one and share
The thoughts that you thought you could never let anyone know you thought
And feel the love in which you feared you’d never be caught
I find myself falling into dreams that I had programmed myself to never to think
Instead of my normal fantasies, allowing the memory of your touch take me to the brink
Reminiscing my way into the safety your arms used to carry
Rethinking my stance on a life with the one I plan to marry
Marriage. That was a concept to which I once carried such strong aversion
But this morning, it was the only thing my dreams had me immersed in
The night before, my subconscious conjured up your hands on my belly ever swollen
Us laying on our bed, in our house, the place we had made our home in
And the night before that, I woke still sweaty, legs trembling
The things my dreams had you doing me…..the thought still has me melting
And I’m still here, wondering when I let myself go enough to feel all this
When did I let someone in far enough to fantasize something as small as a kiss?
I have tried to decipher the dream from what is real
But I can’t figure out if this the old pouring out or a new love that I feel
Maybe something I never let go of that now is coming to fruition
Relying solely on my faith in you, on my intuition
The prayer that I’m investing in what will be my future
This time and these fantasies that I’m allowing my spirit to nurture
But still I’m here slowly letting my insecurities fade from view
Creating my own world in which it’s just the me and you
Safe from all the obstacles that have kept us apart
Free of all the apprehension that has held back my heart
A place that there are no secrets or truths that carry daggers
Where the love is all that matters
When there is no apprehension and the doubts have cleared
I sit and stare wishing, just wishing that you were here
Amazing how feelings grow when you just open up to that one and share
The thoughts that you thought you could never let anyone know you thought
And feel the love in which you feared you’d never be caught
I find myself falling into dreams that I had programmed myself to never to think
Instead of my normal fantasies, allowing the memory of your touch take me to the brink
Reminiscing my way into the safety your arms used to carry
Rethinking my stance on a life with the one I plan to marry
Marriage. That was a concept to which I once carried such strong aversion
But this morning, it was the only thing my dreams had me immersed in
The night before, my subconscious conjured up your hands on my belly ever swollen
Us laying on our bed, in our house, the place we had made our home in
And the night before that, I woke still sweaty, legs trembling
The things my dreams had you doing me…..the thought still has me melting
And I’m still here, wondering when I let myself go enough to feel all this
When did I let someone in far enough to fantasize something as small as a kiss?
I have tried to decipher the dream from what is real
But I can’t figure out if this the old pouring out or a new love that I feel
Maybe something I never let go of that now is coming to fruition
Relying solely on my faith in you, on my intuition
The prayer that I’m investing in what will be my future
This time and these fantasies that I’m allowing my spirit to nurture
But still I’m here slowly letting my insecurities fade from view
Creating my own world in which it’s just the me and you
Safe from all the obstacles that have kept us apart
Free of all the apprehension that has held back my heart
A place that there are no secrets or truths that carry daggers
Where the love is all that matters
When there is no apprehension and the doubts have cleared
I sit and stare wishing, just wishing that you were here