going through a thang

[homeyjay]

as i look to the sky
rain pelting my face
i hope it will shed
the morbid skin i don
that fits like a cloak
and reeks of ridicule
accompanied by humility
distancing myself from me
now i'm my own stranger
the window steadily closing
signaling me to take heed
once it closes i am doomed
knowing the fate that awaits
i am challenged to abort
to revert back to myself
modest,humble and appreciative
as life itself should be lived
laughing at myself not others
finding the courage to love
asking for forgiveness from
those whom i've let down
mending the broken bridges
looking only to the past
to reinforce my future
i got to fight back to regain
the whole me, the old me
and nothing but the me
the fiend that i've become
i must discard somehow
as the rain increases i kneel
coughing up flam and mucus
ridding myself of all the vile
that's corrupted my soul
while rising to my feet
i comsume humilitie's fumes
as i step through the window
i hear people calling me nasty azz
i just laugh and continue farting
excusim wa!!