Conduit
12-28-06, 03:12 PM
hey everybody. long time, no see. back for a while I hope
if there is anything to be said about it at all, it should be this: I am a danger to myself, absolutely. no 2 ways about it. the closer I get to realizing who i am, the less of it i want to be, the less of it i want to be, and the closer i get to making sense of the time i take up, the less i want to be now, and regress into a less-future, minus-present, a past without form. my past is only violent because i want it to be, my future peaceful because He wrote it that way, but of course, all i have, to hold, is what was. i am concerned because i am stuck. i'm not growing. i won't ever get there.
if there is anything to be said about it at all, it should be this: I am a danger to myself, absolutely. no 2 ways about it. the closer I get to realizing who i am, the less of it i want to be, the less of it i want to be, and the closer i get to making sense of the time i take up, the less i want to be now, and regress into a less-future, minus-present, a past without form. my past is only violent because i want it to be, my future peaceful because He wrote it that way, but of course, all i have, to hold, is what was. i am concerned because i am stuck. i'm not growing. i won't ever get there.