7:30femmefatale
09-25-06, 04:41 PM
you comforted me by laying right beside of me
when I was utterly bereft and beside of myself
alone inside my sick head and big bed
my mind’s eye has a mental Polaroid of you forever young
whole and healthy
just the two of us
a madwoman’s best friend
i moved you around recklessly from place to place
making your life more unstable than i made even my own
but you adapted to my every foolish whim with a heart full of love
i only hope that in some way you knew
or can still know, even
just how much you meant, and
how i spoke of you to others, those who knew you and those who never got to meet you
and will never get to meet US.
i will be eternally grateful that i never had to see your eyes
soulless and lifeless
no concrete confirmation exists that the only eyes that saw me love another living being
whole and healthy
can no longer gaze at someone else with their mute testimony
telling with their waves of warmth that i’m a person
who is capable of selfless love
it hurts knowing you will never meet the man who can say he sees the same
with words that roll easily off of his tongue, roaring quietly
full of love for me
like you always were
you were rarely triumphant in terms of much
but you always were and will always be
triumph
when I was utterly bereft and beside of myself
alone inside my sick head and big bed
my mind’s eye has a mental Polaroid of you forever young
whole and healthy
just the two of us
a madwoman’s best friend
i moved you around recklessly from place to place
making your life more unstable than i made even my own
but you adapted to my every foolish whim with a heart full of love
i only hope that in some way you knew
or can still know, even
just how much you meant, and
how i spoke of you to others, those who knew you and those who never got to meet you
and will never get to meet US.
i will be eternally grateful that i never had to see your eyes
soulless and lifeless
no concrete confirmation exists that the only eyes that saw me love another living being
whole and healthy
can no longer gaze at someone else with their mute testimony
telling with their waves of warmth that i’m a person
who is capable of selfless love
it hurts knowing you will never meet the man who can say he sees the same
with words that roll easily off of his tongue, roaring quietly
full of love for me
like you always were
you were rarely triumphant in terms of much
but you always were and will always be
triumph