sexydeltagirl
09-20-06, 09:11 PM
I feel sick to my stomach....
Like I have the bird flu or something similiar...
I can't shake this feeling of utter disgust...
No remedy of a white liquid, milky and minty...
That'll have me confined to the toliet..
Will allow me to release this feeling....
I gotta tell him....
He must know of my past discretions...
Moments of betrayal and sheer malice....
I can't look him in his eyes....
Without feeling the vomit rise in my throat....
My body is trying to detox itself from the lies...
But how can I mouth the words...
I've cheated...
More than once, more than twice even....
How can I admit to being vendictive...
Having men who soul purpose was to be my puppet...
Feed my need to be needed....
I've fallen for some....
Even confessed the word love...
I've curled up with them...
Listened to their hearts beating...
Watched their tears flow...
Prompting me to promise I'd leave him..
I'd be with them for more than a few days...
Mind-blowing orgasms camoflauged my regret....
A confused soul I was...
Now I'm ready to lay my crimes against loyalty...
Out in public view....
Will he sentence me to death...
Or confine his hurt by giving me Parole.
Like I have the bird flu or something similiar...
I can't shake this feeling of utter disgust...
No remedy of a white liquid, milky and minty...
That'll have me confined to the toliet..
Will allow me to release this feeling....
I gotta tell him....
He must know of my past discretions...
Moments of betrayal and sheer malice....
I can't look him in his eyes....
Without feeling the vomit rise in my throat....
My body is trying to detox itself from the lies...
But how can I mouth the words...
I've cheated...
More than once, more than twice even....
How can I admit to being vendictive...
Having men who soul purpose was to be my puppet...
Feed my need to be needed....
I've fallen for some....
Even confessed the word love...
I've curled up with them...
Listened to their hearts beating...
Watched their tears flow...
Prompting me to promise I'd leave him..
I'd be with them for more than a few days...
Mind-blowing orgasms camoflauged my regret....
A confused soul I was...
Now I'm ready to lay my crimes against loyalty...
Out in public view....
Will he sentence me to death...
Or confine his hurt by giving me Parole.