sexydeltagirl
08-13-06, 05:19 PM
She radiates this energy....
That not even sunscreen can block...
Nor rayban shades or beach canopys.
I'm attracted to this energy...
Or am I hungry for it...
The only conclusion I have thus far is that I need it...
Due to the darkness of my past when it first shined on me...
I thought it was 2 good to be true...
Like of all people in the world why did she choose me...
The one with the bitterness and regret...
Living high on the bachelor life...
Or was I really living at all...
Each new woman I brought to my bed...
Brought a new element...
Of excitement mixed with drunkness...
Sometimes I wouldn't bother with condoms...
Cause I couldn't get it up anyway...
Some would stay and keep me company...
While others would disappear like casper....
I wouldn't chase them or beg them 2 stay...
They shouldn't have been there in the first place...
Once alone I would either dream of her...
Or look up at the cieling and pray for her...
Hoping she would magically appear at my door....
Take my hand and let me cry on her shoulder...
Cause for the last 2 years I've been holding it in...
She hurt me...
And no amount of sex or lewd acts can repair my broken heart...
Hopefully she will take her time with me...
Understand moments when I exhibit jealously...
It's only my insecurity speaking..
With my heart having the face of a shy child...
Will she restore my belief....
That I can have real love...
Good love...
Can I have peace?
That not even sunscreen can block...
Nor rayban shades or beach canopys.
I'm attracted to this energy...
Or am I hungry for it...
The only conclusion I have thus far is that I need it...
Due to the darkness of my past when it first shined on me...
I thought it was 2 good to be true...
Like of all people in the world why did she choose me...
The one with the bitterness and regret...
Living high on the bachelor life...
Or was I really living at all...
Each new woman I brought to my bed...
Brought a new element...
Of excitement mixed with drunkness...
Sometimes I wouldn't bother with condoms...
Cause I couldn't get it up anyway...
Some would stay and keep me company...
While others would disappear like casper....
I wouldn't chase them or beg them 2 stay...
They shouldn't have been there in the first place...
Once alone I would either dream of her...
Or look up at the cieling and pray for her...
Hoping she would magically appear at my door....
Take my hand and let me cry on her shoulder...
Cause for the last 2 years I've been holding it in...
She hurt me...
And no amount of sex or lewd acts can repair my broken heart...
Hopefully she will take her time with me...
Understand moments when I exhibit jealously...
It's only my insecurity speaking..
With my heart having the face of a shy child...
Will she restore my belief....
That I can have real love...
Good love...
Can I have peace?