doing my best...

[Nadira...Rare]

Doing my best not to cry...
Think, dream, feel about you
Wast my time and energy on you
But it's not working
It is extremely difficult to explain the way you make me feel...
Sometimes you make me believe...
I am the only woman in the world made for your love
Then there are other times I don't know how I should feel
Or what I am to you
I'm sick of competing with a fantasy
Because I am real
A realist who found her dream in reality
But you still hold on to the thought of your imagination
Oh yeah
She exists, just not in me
Only because you can't see her
And everytime I try to walk away...
I can't
Because who walks away from their dreams
And I'm doing my best not to cry
Because I feel like my tears are absolutely meaningless
But thought doesn't stop them
They still form in the corners of my eyes...
And fall without hesitation
The sweetness of your words used to bring me comfort
Now I don't trust them
Those word have been repeated so many times to countless others
And they begin to think they love you too.
In doing my bes not to cry I catch myself laughing...
Because I don't know you
And it's funny because I love you
But I don't know you
Thought I did, but nah
Everyday you prove that I don't
I'm doing my best not to feel for you
Whenever I do anger seems to build
And I lose sight of the reasons I feel for you in the first place
Sometimes love is not always about doing what you love
I can't do friends with you because of love
And I can't do love with you because of you
It's impossible
This relationship is....
Dead

[Abs_inth da prophet]

[font=palatino linotype ]I'm tryin... tryin real hard to find the difference between what's right and...what's rigt in my hands..
if lovin you is the plan then..
I suppose you should be right in my eyes..
so either love is blind..
or I'm dumbfounded just tryin to write my mind..
either way I can't make up the difference of what's left.
me at home..and you sittin alone on the steps..holdin the phone stressed.
tryin to hold on..
and I'm tryin to make it to you but I'm takin too long...
you're thinking...puttin up with me is not worth cryin til dawn throwin up in the morn...or waiting til the baby's born..
I'm drinkin'..conflicted by these demons lustful emotions & torn between..
believing in the you & I dream...the old heads that taught me fukk b.itches and get "cream"..or just the fear of seeing the scene..become a nightmare..

I've never loved anyone like this but you believe that I don't care..
and I don't know what to do..
can you forgive a f.uck up for...fukkin up on you?
there's so much to say and the time has me running off the page..
I don't wanna blame my lack of maturity on my age...and maybe that's why we're not engaged...
I'm just tryin to find the right lines..but..the only thing comin to mind is...
....
I'm Sorry.
...
...
..
I wish it was enough..


Sup Nai..just wanted to drop in on ya..let you know I'm feelin ya...

keep droppin by..

peace.

[Marie 03]

Sometimes love is not always about doing what you love
I can't do friends with you because of love
And I can't do love with you because of you
It's impossible



great poem but this is one of my fave parts. can really relate to that

[Nadira...Rare]

[font=palatino linotype ]I'm tryin... tryin real hard to find the difference between what's right and...what's rigt in my hands..
if lovin you is the plan then..
I suppose you should be right in my eyes..
so either love is blind..
or I'm dumbfounded just tryin to write my mind..
either way I can't make up the difference of what's left.
me at home..and you sittin alone on the steps..holdin the phone stressed.
tryin to hold on..
and I'm tryin to make it to you but I'm takin too long...
you're thinking...puttin up with me is not worth cryin til dawn throwin up in the morn...or waiting til the baby's born..
I'm drinkin'..conflicted by these demons lustful emotions & torn between..
believing in the you & I dream...the old heads that taught me fukk b.itches and get "cream"..or just the fear of seeing the scene..become a nightmare..
I've never loved anyone like this but you believe that I don't care..
and I don't know what to do..
can you forgive a f.uck up for...fukkin up on you?
there's so much to say and the time has me running off the page..
I don't wanna blame my lack of maturity on my age...and maybe that's why we're not engaged...
I'm just tryin to find the right lines..but..the only thing comin to mind is...
....
I'm Sorry.
...
...
..
I wish it was enough..
Sup Nai..just wanted to drop in on ya..let you know I'm feelin ya...
keep droppin by..
peace.



I haven't been here in awhile but thank you... you know I love your work

[Nadira...Rare]

great poem but this is one of my fave parts. can really relate to that
thank you so much it makes me feel good when people relate to me