Absolut

[Absolut da poet]

...
through these distorted images i see myself...twisted..
in this glass..half empty..feelin the passt hit me in multiple spots and..
my heart's not taking these double shots well
my thoughts are jailed in parts..froze..i'm trapped in these enclosed spaces
my mind races to fill in these pages of time..lost..
in my memories line of sentences are periods i can't define how it's
killin me inside to watch you leave everytime and still believe you're mine
i can't...
even begin to understand how you say you love this man
but you're never around....i just can't..
get down with..all this silence sounds of loneliness roamin this house just
reminds me you're gone.. and so on i'm torn in this piece until mornin
or at least..til i find a reason to keep goin but i can't...
stop..my breathes are tied to this wrist watch..
feelin the tick-tocks across my chest
where the pressure sets this emptiness of hours..
no more..you..took my forever when you walked out the door
left me parked on the floor next to the devil...on rocks..
and in this fire water my soul drops i'm..
drowning where these spirits rot in a glass hole i saw the pass unfold where
these visions behold you on the phone..
speakin to some unknown 'bout
how you wanna leave this home...'bout how you can't sleep and need to get goin from whatever i'm doin i don't know..
when i tried to talk to you..you told me let it go only i said NO...
tell me what the problem is..you..gave me the cold shoulder so i got pissed
said i wish you never had my kids...said i wish you...just
find another place to live and ....just get the f.uck outta mine..
damn...
....
the anger made me lose my mind and..now i'm bout to lose what's mine over words that shoulda never been i'm just now rememberin' the elements settled in..margins..full of conflict the..argument elevated the problem
i thought the alcohol would help me solve it but it only made it harder for me to see my daughter
damn...or the sun..already this shiit is dumb already i wish this shiit was done
but you would miss where i'm comin from..just let me finish love..
...you got everything in the middle of...us..
friends...lust...it's not that I don't trust..
but you keep them a must and me....
a maybe....never close enough...
to talk or touch..
out the door..always in a rush you are...jumpin in a car
or bus..you are..always in a fuss...
when i ask you to chill
negative..you feel..migraines and you're poppin a pill..
what's the deal are you here forreal..tryin to build with me..
seriously this..constant round & round is killin me wtf..
you're turnin my life bottoms up..and i'm woosey from the constant blood
rushes the emotional gushes of pain flooded this love...this ain't a fukkin game
you're driving me insane..i'm tired of playin..
tired of laying here nights thinkin you might come home..
fixin my sights on the phone up six in the mornin
drinkin a pint of corn...liquor thinkin i seen the porch lights flicker
i don't know what's...makin me sicker you or the hole in my liver..
withdraw makes me shiver from the cold of sweatin you i'm gettin iller and iller
from dealin with this invisible feelin and...
maybe you're not hearin me cause...
...
i don't know...cause...
cause these thoughts are just not enough..(i don't know)
...
can you see where this is goin..
where the things you might not see..but think..are showin me
and how they're projected of what i'm doin..can you hear me through them..
now...
well maybe when my horizon comes down you'll see the parallel
the added pressure in Hi's and...where it bleeded my's...(for you)
no more...defeated cries..(for you)
no more lower I's..(for you)
no more pleasent surprises...(for you)...cause that's what I used to do..
now...what's made the future past I'm thinkin..how will tomorrows last
beyond my presence...only through these lessons I see my gift was a curse
I gave myself through each verse...and I blame myself..
cause...you still don't get me..
I blame myself cause..you still won't let me...
won't let me......
...
..
be.

[Nadira...Rare]

Absolut.... that was beautiful I love it.:yes: I'm bout to read it again... I feel your pain... I want to just be too

[Absolut da poet]

Absolut.... that was beautiful I love it.:yes: I'm bout to read it again... I feel your pain... I want to just be too

thanks...

[C lo 3O5]

another nice poem

[Enlil]

Had to bring this one back from the past...

This is too good.

Abs... I'm becoming a fan of your stuff and I'm a picky reader. You've got a lot of emotion and the way you build intensities with rhyme scheme in this piece makes it a great read... This is a great spoken work piece.

Up fam!

[Abs_inth da prophet]

Had to bring this one back from the past...
This is too good.
Abs... I'm becoming a fan of your stuff and I'm a picky reader. You've got a lot of emotion and the way you build intensities with rhyme scheme in this piece makes it a great read... This is a great spoken work piece.
Up fam!

thanks I appreciate it..

I wrote this maybe four years ago back when I used to write....this was on the Last CD I did..

My thoughts are racing soo much now that I can't even right them down anymore....now I gotta just record what I'm thinking cause it makes better poetry...life to me is poetry..

the connection between all living and non-living things is like the bridge of a sentence..

[Mr.November+]

Very nice....this makes me want to pick up my pen again. Thats what poetry is all about inspiration.

[pryncess31400]

When I read your poems, it's like you are reaaaaal close whispering these words in my ear...I have never heard your voice but I can hear you.

[Marie 03]

ive read this probably three times already and i like it even more every time i read it