persia
06-12-06, 12:25 AM
When I woke up this morning, I told myself that love didnt live here anymore
I repeated this affirmation later when I went to the store
I cooked your favorite meal and told myself once more
That no longer would your face ever grace my front door
And every time I said it I felt stronger
Thought that I could live without your candor
Confident that it would get better as time stretched longer
Convinced myself that all that didnt matter, both you and her
I was fine sleeping alone
And accepted that this was no longer your home
Walked our dog solo, put just my name as who to leave a message for after the tone
Psyched myself up to get back into being single, walking into the unknown
And right as I picked up the pieces of what I thought was my life with you
You came back for me, claiming that this was a pain you never knew
Told me you had been fighting what in your heart you realized to be true
That all you ever loved was me and was just too stubborn to have a clue
You apologized for all the tears I cried and all those late nights
Finally owned up to your role in our many fights
Promised that starting today, you would love me with all your might
And that never again would I feel pain, hurt or spite
You played with my curls as you did when we first met
Kissed my forehead told me no more would you forget
The love that makes you whole or the groundwork we set
I was your lucky penny and on your promise I could place any bet
And just as I started to believe that you were real
That you had made up your own mind to change without my tearful appeal
At 4 am I would no longer worry, my mind would no cease to reel
That moments with her where what you were trying to steal
Your phone rang in that tone that has come to signify my competitor
While some little part of me prayed that both feet you would keep in the door
That your could break my heart again after promising so much more
You said Hold on one sec yet again and said you had to run to the store
And again I was alone and back to my affirmation that every things going to be alright
That I wont cry myself to sleep every night
That one day I could again be able to stand upright
But for now, I wallow in the mess you left me alone to fight
And Im losing.
I repeated this affirmation later when I went to the store
I cooked your favorite meal and told myself once more
That no longer would your face ever grace my front door
And every time I said it I felt stronger
Thought that I could live without your candor
Confident that it would get better as time stretched longer
Convinced myself that all that didnt matter, both you and her
I was fine sleeping alone
And accepted that this was no longer your home
Walked our dog solo, put just my name as who to leave a message for after the tone
Psyched myself up to get back into being single, walking into the unknown
And right as I picked up the pieces of what I thought was my life with you
You came back for me, claiming that this was a pain you never knew
Told me you had been fighting what in your heart you realized to be true
That all you ever loved was me and was just too stubborn to have a clue
You apologized for all the tears I cried and all those late nights
Finally owned up to your role in our many fights
Promised that starting today, you would love me with all your might
And that never again would I feel pain, hurt or spite
You played with my curls as you did when we first met
Kissed my forehead told me no more would you forget
The love that makes you whole or the groundwork we set
I was your lucky penny and on your promise I could place any bet
And just as I started to believe that you were real
That you had made up your own mind to change without my tearful appeal
At 4 am I would no longer worry, my mind would no cease to reel
That moments with her where what you were trying to steal
Your phone rang in that tone that has come to signify my competitor
While some little part of me prayed that both feet you would keep in the door
That your could break my heart again after promising so much more
You said Hold on one sec yet again and said you had to run to the store
And again I was alone and back to my affirmation that every things going to be alright
That I wont cry myself to sleep every night
That one day I could again be able to stand upright
But for now, I wallow in the mess you left me alone to fight
And Im losing.