persia
06-12-06, 12:23 AM
How does one decipher the difference between being in love and being just plain stupid?
When does that moment come and whisper to you When are you going to let yourself LIVE?
All this time wanting nothing more that to love the pain away
Never realizing that I would die wanting for that day
Looking into eyes that held contempt for woman after woman after woman
Praying the eventually you would have your time to build a home within
Yourself.
Like a foolish girl that maybe I still am, I followed in the path laid out by my mothers instruction
How to love a man out of his destruction
I say I may be that foolish little girl because I some how saw my manual ending differently.
I still held the naïve notion that if I loved just enough, eventually there would be time for me.
That I would degrade myself in your eyes enough to show you how far I would go
How much I cared, how much I wanted, how much I loved, how much I know
"I know how you are feeling and I feel your pain and I know that your life has been hard
I know you need someone to hold you down; I know those b*tches are the reason you keep guard
I hear you baby and Ill play that role. Make up for their mistakes and jump through your hoops
Rub your back if stresses are too much, suck your d*ck when life's curves throw you for a loop"
Damn, after all that, after my inability to see that I was worth more subsided
After the time came when between your well being and my own I was no longer divided
I asserted that I needed to get me ME
Now Im a selfish b*tch, a half-breed and another addition to the long line of monkeys
Here you go, screaming "you told me" and all these other rah rah lines of bullsh*t
When I seem to remember you being told that all would be cool if my heart never took the hit
You sat there and listened as I told you how Ive never known a drama free bliss
That you moving in, laying here nightly was ok, if you never covered your contempt with a kiss.
Your rant continued with You knew I didnt want you and I need to get me straight
But when I told you to go do that, you look at me like Im the b*tch you love to hate.
Well answer me this, which is it exactly that you want? What is it that you need?
You know a part of me still wants to take the most closed part of you an allow it to just breathe.
Please make it clear in my head
Do you want to do you or do you want to lie in my bed?
Its a simple question really, that in all this time you cant seem to make clear
I need mind my business, own that Im not your woman, but on the other side of the mirror
I can cook for you like Im your woman; handle your business like Im your woman,
F*ck you raw like Im your woman, get lockjaw from sucking your d*ck like Im your woman
Just as long as you get what you need at the time and I know Im NOT YOUR WOMAN.
That equation would make much more sense to me if you stopped proclaiming a friendship divine
If you took time to see that friend would have concern for not only their heart, but also mine.
F*ck how much youre hurting or how much you need
What the hell is the point of you being here if a two way street is too much for you to see?
If you need to do you, I cant get mad, wont cry, wont beg, or any other form of the above
As long as you leave and stay gone long enough for me to get my love
Whether that is something I find in myself or the beauty that will one day return to surround me
Its fine either way, because today you taught me Im the only one that will love me explicitly.
When does that moment come and whisper to you When are you going to let yourself LIVE?
All this time wanting nothing more that to love the pain away
Never realizing that I would die wanting for that day
Looking into eyes that held contempt for woman after woman after woman
Praying the eventually you would have your time to build a home within
Yourself.
Like a foolish girl that maybe I still am, I followed in the path laid out by my mothers instruction
How to love a man out of his destruction
I say I may be that foolish little girl because I some how saw my manual ending differently.
I still held the naïve notion that if I loved just enough, eventually there would be time for me.
That I would degrade myself in your eyes enough to show you how far I would go
How much I cared, how much I wanted, how much I loved, how much I know
"I know how you are feeling and I feel your pain and I know that your life has been hard
I know you need someone to hold you down; I know those b*tches are the reason you keep guard
I hear you baby and Ill play that role. Make up for their mistakes and jump through your hoops
Rub your back if stresses are too much, suck your d*ck when life's curves throw you for a loop"
Damn, after all that, after my inability to see that I was worth more subsided
After the time came when between your well being and my own I was no longer divided
I asserted that I needed to get me ME
Now Im a selfish b*tch, a half-breed and another addition to the long line of monkeys
Here you go, screaming "you told me" and all these other rah rah lines of bullsh*t
When I seem to remember you being told that all would be cool if my heart never took the hit
You sat there and listened as I told you how Ive never known a drama free bliss
That you moving in, laying here nightly was ok, if you never covered your contempt with a kiss.
Your rant continued with You knew I didnt want you and I need to get me straight
But when I told you to go do that, you look at me like Im the b*tch you love to hate.
Well answer me this, which is it exactly that you want? What is it that you need?
You know a part of me still wants to take the most closed part of you an allow it to just breathe.
Please make it clear in my head
Do you want to do you or do you want to lie in my bed?
Its a simple question really, that in all this time you cant seem to make clear
I need mind my business, own that Im not your woman, but on the other side of the mirror
I can cook for you like Im your woman; handle your business like Im your woman,
F*ck you raw like Im your woman, get lockjaw from sucking your d*ck like Im your woman
Just as long as you get what you need at the time and I know Im NOT YOUR WOMAN.
That equation would make much more sense to me if you stopped proclaiming a friendship divine
If you took time to see that friend would have concern for not only their heart, but also mine.
F*ck how much youre hurting or how much you need
What the hell is the point of you being here if a two way street is too much for you to see?
If you need to do you, I cant get mad, wont cry, wont beg, or any other form of the above
As long as you leave and stay gone long enough for me to get my love
Whether that is something I find in myself or the beauty that will one day return to surround me
Its fine either way, because today you taught me Im the only one that will love me explicitly.