sexydeltagirl
06-01-06, 02:39 PM
I want you to understand that I'm much different now...
I've grown up..
I'm not that same innocent young woman...
Who begged for your touches..
I can please myself quite well now..
The curves of my body are a reflection of my past...
You and I both now it wasn't always smooth..
So I stand before you...
A woman who truly understands what love is...
It wasn't what you gave me...
Trying to hide your other life....
Your newborn baby...
Made be behave in ways that would...
Make people question was I born a lady...
My deamnor quite evil...
My actions that of a hethen...
And when you finally admitted that I needed...
Someone better than you...
I had to step back and re-evaluate who I was...
It took weeks even months...
Trying to understand why my love....
Wasn't good enough...
To make you be good to me...
Treat me...
How I was supposed to be treated..
Not lead me down a dark alley...
And leave me fighting for my sanity..
Questioning my self-esteem...
Trying to fight into tight jeans..
Just to make my ass...
Appear larger then the girls on the TV screen...
What did I allow you to do that to me?
I can't blame it on the rain...
It became my friend...
It provided the healing...
I would sometimes stand in it...
And allow it to wash over me...
It provided the cleansing that I needed...
So as I stand in front of you looking deep into your eyes...
Those same eyes that looked at my body....
With disdain and sometimes pity...
Yet during the midnight hours...
Found peace within it...
Like an infant child...
Found pleasure from it..
Like the release of an orgasm...
So what do you want from me now...
Whatever you can throw at me...
I have my catchers mit on....
I am ready...
I can stand here in front of you today...
And say, you tried to break me...
But, I'm stronger than yesturday...
I've grown up..
I'm not that same innocent young woman...
Who begged for your touches..
I can please myself quite well now..
The curves of my body are a reflection of my past...
You and I both now it wasn't always smooth..
So I stand before you...
A woman who truly understands what love is...
It wasn't what you gave me...
Trying to hide your other life....
Your newborn baby...
Made be behave in ways that would...
Make people question was I born a lady...
My deamnor quite evil...
My actions that of a hethen...
And when you finally admitted that I needed...
Someone better than you...
I had to step back and re-evaluate who I was...
It took weeks even months...
Trying to understand why my love....
Wasn't good enough...
To make you be good to me...
Treat me...
How I was supposed to be treated..
Not lead me down a dark alley...
And leave me fighting for my sanity..
Questioning my self-esteem...
Trying to fight into tight jeans..
Just to make my ass...
Appear larger then the girls on the TV screen...
What did I allow you to do that to me?
I can't blame it on the rain...
It became my friend...
It provided the healing...
I would sometimes stand in it...
And allow it to wash over me...
It provided the cleansing that I needed...
So as I stand in front of you looking deep into your eyes...
Those same eyes that looked at my body....
With disdain and sometimes pity...
Yet during the midnight hours...
Found peace within it...
Like an infant child...
Found pleasure from it..
Like the release of an orgasm...
So what do you want from me now...
Whatever you can throw at me...
I have my catchers mit on....
I am ready...
I can stand here in front of you today...
And say, you tried to break me...
But, I'm stronger than yesturday...