persia
05-09-06, 01:35 AM
My motivation to write has been gone for months... it finally just popped up again today... this is my first out the gate after a long hiatus...
I was reminiscing on the way your eyes would sparkle when your smile blessed me
How your arms were my epitome of safety
How I knew you loved me just by your voices inflection
And I wonder what if you and I have never gone our separate directions
How would my life differ from what is real
If on that day long ago I told you what I really feel
Scared to tell you goodbye, I replay it all the time
Afraid you would know the doubt as your eyes met mine
I loved you so much, to think about what I lost is sheer pain
Running from what haunted me most left me nothing to gain
Because in the process of thinking I knew what I needed to do
I also ran from what my heart was missing. I ran from you
My life is in such a different place now
And I cant see when why or even how
It would be possible to ever cross your path again
And even if I did, where would we begin?
Your son is seven now, Im sure the image of his daddy in stature
And I find it hard to believe he doesnt possess the same loving nature
I know it seems crazy I even remember any of those things
But on occasion I do think of the two of you and my heart sings
And though I know you will never read this, the release feels right
It still haunts me that I walked away over a simple fight
A misunderstanding that I wish to this day I could reassure you of
But in my haste to be independent, I instead walked away from your love.
I hope your life is happy now
That you found someone that knows how
To make you feel like the man you can be and most certainly are
Someone that knows your history, I meaning of that little scar
That loves Brian McKnight enough to let you listen until the cd skips
Someone that can appreciate light kisses on their fingertips
I hope the South Bay still can spark your vivacity
And every so often, when you look over the ocean on a full moon, you think of me.
I was reminiscing on the way your eyes would sparkle when your smile blessed me
How your arms were my epitome of safety
How I knew you loved me just by your voices inflection
And I wonder what if you and I have never gone our separate directions
How would my life differ from what is real
If on that day long ago I told you what I really feel
Scared to tell you goodbye, I replay it all the time
Afraid you would know the doubt as your eyes met mine
I loved you so much, to think about what I lost is sheer pain
Running from what haunted me most left me nothing to gain
Because in the process of thinking I knew what I needed to do
I also ran from what my heart was missing. I ran from you
My life is in such a different place now
And I cant see when why or even how
It would be possible to ever cross your path again
And even if I did, where would we begin?
Your son is seven now, Im sure the image of his daddy in stature
And I find it hard to believe he doesnt possess the same loving nature
I know it seems crazy I even remember any of those things
But on occasion I do think of the two of you and my heart sings
And though I know you will never read this, the release feels right
It still haunts me that I walked away over a simple fight
A misunderstanding that I wish to this day I could reassure you of
But in my haste to be independent, I instead walked away from your love.
I hope your life is happy now
That you found someone that knows how
To make you feel like the man you can be and most certainly are
Someone that knows your history, I meaning of that little scar
That loves Brian McKnight enough to let you listen until the cd skips
Someone that can appreciate light kisses on their fingertips
I hope the South Bay still can spark your vivacity
And every so often, when you look over the ocean on a full moon, you think of me.