slave2aplaya
11-26-05, 11:52 PM
Despite this frown
deep down
I know its always love
despite fights
and crazy nights
of not knowing
if I could even
go home, feeling alone,
constantly checking a silent phone
sometimes feeling
my hearts been dissected
and left in four quarters
ultimate respect and feeling, dealing
with being a lonely single mum
with 2 wayward teenage daughters
so unsure and clearly unsettled
life seems so hard
we've left down our guard
and been hurt
but can we get by in this
3 floor yard...
lets stay alert
sometimes Im misunderstood
Im not saying Im from the ghetto
or the hood
but Ive seen enough ****
to blur my eyes for good
its seems so backwards
I thought we were happy
this wasnt how
things were meant to be
not how I pictured things mentally
growing up
will we always be in touch
words are so easy
but can mean so much
for all I know
before
no one even cared
so now Im scared
because inside Im asking, silently
honestly...
Daddy? Do you even know me?
feelings that for so long
have been kept in
and accepting
Im no longer anyones priority
realising as a person Im no less
just because Im someones 2nd best
N.b. Just to let everyone who reads this know that Im an 18 year old trying to make sense of everything I never looked this closely at before...I apologise for wasting your time if I didnt convey this well...
deep down
I know its always love
despite fights
and crazy nights
of not knowing
if I could even
go home, feeling alone,
constantly checking a silent phone
sometimes feeling
my hearts been dissected
and left in four quarters
ultimate respect and feeling, dealing
with being a lonely single mum
with 2 wayward teenage daughters
so unsure and clearly unsettled
life seems so hard
we've left down our guard
and been hurt
but can we get by in this
3 floor yard...
lets stay alert
sometimes Im misunderstood
Im not saying Im from the ghetto
or the hood
but Ive seen enough ****
to blur my eyes for good
its seems so backwards
I thought we were happy
this wasnt how
things were meant to be
not how I pictured things mentally
growing up
will we always be in touch
words are so easy
but can mean so much
for all I know
before
no one even cared
so now Im scared
because inside Im asking, silently
honestly...
Daddy? Do you even know me?
feelings that for so long
have been kept in
and accepting
Im no longer anyones priority
realising as a person Im no less
just because Im someones 2nd best
N.b. Just to let everyone who reads this know that Im an 18 year old trying to make sense of everything I never looked this closely at before...I apologise for wasting your time if I didnt convey this well...