I admit...

[slave2aplaya]

I admit I’m scared
Not quite…
Prepared
For life without you
Without the crazy nights
Of intense sex
And crazy fights
For the silence at home
For waking up alone
For not bringing you your dinner
With a curtsey and a smile
For my life to feel worthwhile
Again…

For being me…For being free
For doing those things
I never dared
I’m not quite…prepared
For cleaning up
What’s left
For this pain in my chest
For you not being mine
I’m not ready
To hurt over you one last time
When your love is still desired
I would have held on forever
If I wasn’t so tired
At the end of my tether
When you were my man
Yet I still love you with all that I am
Let expose this wound quickly
While I physically…
Lose control
Because I’m so scared of…
Letting go
So go
So go
And never be mine again
I’ll sit here and hurt
And I’ll take the pain
I’ll understand
I’ll stay alone
You’ll hate me
Never call my phone
And think that I regret you
And even though it hurts me more
I’ll do what’s right
…and let you …