Sleepwalking

[pryncess31400]

I woke up today
I had been sleep walking for so long
The world has changed so much
I look around and see
Things I have never seen
The colors are brighter
The sounds are sweeter
My baby is not a baby anymore L
He is a little boy now
I missed so much of his life
The places I could have taken him
The things I could have taught him
About life and love
I am so blessed because
despite my slumber
He is amazing

I was bound to someone
Who was not bound to me
I created life with someone
I didn’t take that lightly
Apparently he did
And I accepted that for years
I was satisfied
With the bits of him I could get
I was grateful
That he was around sometimes
I kissed his ass
So my son would know his father
I did anything he wanted
Every freaky trick
I learned to perfection
He told me at the beginning
What one woman won’t do
Another one will
I was the woman that always would
But that still didn’t keep him home

I let him disrespect me
Because I had been too battered by life
To respect myself
To love myself
To see my intelligence and beauty
To embrace my gentleness
Instead of seeing it as a weakness
Knowing that it is fine to be vulnerable
With the right person
And to not be afraid to
Leave the wrong person
To know that I deserved better
Than he could ever give me

I woke up today
I stretched
Yawned
And started living my life.






This has been a long time coming. I haven't been able to really write in a long time.